happyhilz♥

when i was a child, i just can’t wait the time that i will find a work. and now etoh na yun… but i don’t know kung anong job ang gusto ko… i finished nursing and passed the nle exam, pero parang hindi pa ako ready magwork as a nurse. haaiii…

ang sakit pala sa ulo ng ganito.. andito na ako sa time na toh pero hindi ko naman lam kung ano talaga gusto ko gawin sa buhay ko…

minsan nag nag iimagine nalang din ako na sana ganito, sana ganyan.. pero mhirap din pala pag puro dreaming nalang.. dapat make a move to make that imagination happen… whooo…

and by the way.. hindi din ok love life ko ngayon… shit… kainis… ang sakit sa ulo ha…. wala man lang makapitan…

ayaw ko na din sana magsulat dito bout this but i just cant stop it.. parang hindi ko talaga kaya dalhin eh.. ang sakit sakit na ah… you can’t really tell to someone what you want them to do for you or even tell them what should they feel for you. hindi mo pwedeng pilitin ng isang taong mahalin ka.. o gawin ang isang  bagay para sayo.. yan ang natutunan ko ngayon.. treasure the things what you have right now… the moments… laughters… and as well as the person that makes you smile!! just feel it

i have a friend, i dont know what kind of relationship we have. but one thing is for sure, he is special to me that i dont even know why.. he is not that gwapo, not that nice and i keep telling to myself that i should not love this person… he doesn’t deserve me….but at the end of the day i still can’t stop my tears from falling everytime magkakalayo kami… he keeps on hurting me kahit na di niya sinasadya at hindi niya alam na nasasaktan niya ako… ewan ko meron ba talagang taong manhid or he just keep on doing it dahil lam niyang i can’t smile without him….

gusto ko din sumaya like others… want to have someone na mamahalin ako unconditionally.. someone that will bring out the best in me.. i really want to go around para makita na siya.. want ko na siya makilala.. pero pano?? if nakafocus parin ako sa iang taong wala naman akong kasiguraduhan… i dont know… gusto ko na lumayo.. nalulungkot ako… want ko na siya iwanan pero ang panget sa pakiramdam ko… everytime na may nangyayaring masama sa kanya ako ang nasasaktan for him… weird??? talagang weird!! kung maibabalik ko lang past.. i really dont want to him this guy.. pero siguro may reasons why God let me to meet him… haaaiiii……….

i will just pray and ask God……. want ko lang po sumaya….pls